Well, you could, but it is all a little long for an lj comment. Mostly, I'm just working very hard and becoming very frustrated by my own self-imposed limitations. I keep forgetting that I deserve these things that I'm working so hard for, and then I stop myself from working for them. Lots of procrastinating and self-sabotaging. I'm just so good at that.

Amidst all that, I think about parts of me and places in my life that I had to walk away from that I now miss very much. The thing is that you can't actually *lose* parts of yourself. They're just sleeping until you need them. Good reminder there.

I was just writing a private post to myself questioning whether I was wasting my time, and then I checked my friends page and saw this. It pretty much squished that patch of self-doubt and frustration.

So, yeah! Thanks!