School Goals.... Winter

[emberleo]

Okay, I can't handle this. I'm freaking way too far out. I have the help I need when I can surface enough to breathe and ASK for it, and that's great, but I simply can not handle the prospect of going back to school in late August. I can barely handle the prospect of late September.

January, though, that feels do-able. The deadline for that is October. I'll not only be sure they have all my letters and transcripts, but that gives the GRE folks plenty of time to send my scores, and I can sort out my taxes and funding options as well, which are still overwhelming me right now.

I'm ashamed that this is still so fucking hard. I hate this about myself. And I'm afraid that everyone will be so disappointed in me putting it off another quarter. But I just need the breathing room.

Besides, my summer job doesn't end until October, and I have that trip out East to deal with as well, so maybe it's just.... better all around.

*deep breath*

*sigh*

-E-

Comments

[songcoyote]

Heyo,

Offering yourself permission to take your time and finish what's going on now, have some time to deal with the paperwork and other fuss necessary, and start without so much pressure, is a very good thing. It's not an easy thing to do, mind you, but it is powerful and helps you set and keep boundaries with and within yourself.

Give yourself time to soak in the sunshine on the way to work. It's worth it, and so are you.

Light and laughter,
SongCoyote

[emberleo]

*hugs* I'm glad you understand.

Thank you

-E-