School Goals.... Winter

[emberleo]

Okay, I can't handle this. I'm freaking way too far out. I have the help I need when I can surface enough to breathe and ASK for it, and that's great, but I simply can not handle the prospect of going back to school in late August. I can barely handle the prospect of late September.

January, though, that feels do-able. The deadline for that is October. I'll not only be sure they have all my letters and transcripts, but that gives the GRE folks plenty of time to send my scores, and I can sort out my taxes and funding options as well, which are still overwhelming me right now.

I'm ashamed that this is still so fucking hard. I hate this about myself. And I'm afraid that everyone will be so disappointed in me putting it off another quarter. But I just need the breathing room.

Besides, my summer job doesn't end until October, and I have that trip out East to deal with as well, so maybe it's just.... better all around.

*deep breath*

*sigh*

-E-

Comments

Support

[ffin_cerddwr]

This will not be a surprise, but you have my complete and total support here.

Remember to breathe, and that you *are* going back.

*lots and lots of hugs*

[xochiquetzalina]

Seriously? Like, you're going to *WAIT*???

WUNDERBAR!!!!! You've got a bit of a full-plate right now and October is TOTALLY doable. :D

Yay!!!!

[songcoyote]

Heyo,

Offering yourself permission to take your time and finish what's going on now, have some time to deal with the paperwork and other fuss necessary, and start without so much pressure, is a very good thing. It's not an easy thing to do, mind you, but it is powerful and helps you set and keep boundaries with and within yourself.

Give yourself time to soak in the sunshine on the way to work. It's worth it, and so are you.

Light and laughter,
SongCoyote

[jensurvivor]

Taking the autumn off school does not seem unreasonable to me.

[jess]

Given the parameters set out here, it seems perfectly reasonable that you should wait until October. Looks like the wise and responsible decision to me. *hugs*

[jess]

Ermf...sorry, January, misread the deadline for application as the start time. But yeah, winter good, before then, not so much.

[emberleo]

Not the response I was expecting, but thank you!

-E-

Re: Support

[emberleo]

No surprise, and thank you :D

-E-

[emberleo]

*hugs* I'm glad you understand.

Thank you

-E-

[emberleo]

Ah, I parsed your first reply as waiting until October to finish my applications so it's all good to me. :)

-E-

[emberleo]

The plan itself isn't per se unreasonable. My emotional state, on the other hand...

I'll be okay. Just, gah! Oy! Y'know?

-E-

[jensurvivor]

yeah

[xochiquetzalina]

Sorry, my incredulity for funny's sake doesn't shine online the way it would in person.

Picture the first part being said with like the high-lilting valley girl speak so that everything sounds like a big ol' question. :D

[emberleo]

Oh, I got it - no need to apologize.

I just was expecting something more like "oh, poor thing" or "are you sure this is the right thing?"

-E-