Processing About Processing

[emberleo]

I don't like how hard it seems to be to think clearly enough for long enough to use my journal to process.

I'm getting all kinds of processing done, and all kinds of stuff is going on in my life, but when I sit down with intent to document and process further, it just dribbles out my ears, and I'm exhausted at the thought of rehashing it all here.

I don't know if the problem is that this is a somewhat public forum, that it's only read by a handful of people despite its public nature, or because it involves writing things out in the more general sense. I have managed other bits of writing easily enough.

*shrug* I don't know. Once again I find myself tired of being tired.

-E-

Comments

[emberleo]

I don't think a Processing filter would help, since that's more or less why I have a journal at all. I do have some filters for specific topics in processing, but nothing like I had set up at LJ.

I think it's mostly the feeling that I can't re-articulate what's going on in my head when the time comes to write it down. Very frustrating.

The gods seem to be putting me through a lot lately, trying to catch up with certain necessary projects while there's time, and I'm catching a lot of shenanigans about HOW They're doing so. What I find frustrating is that I don't catch that it's Them again until a day or two after I've hit the wall for whatever reason. Again, very frustrating.
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Thank you for the comment. It's helpful to realize that folks ARE reading. It's always easier to write when I have a specific audience in mind.

-E-